17.06.2011

When you fall in love with two boys,

And you have no idea which one to choose,

Choose the second one,

Cause if you truly loved the first one,

There wouldn't had been a second one.

Right now,

This girl here is having a huge mess in her heart.

She has done something terrible.

And she has to pay for it.

She fell for two boys.

And now,

She's having a major heart-mess.

She loves the first one,

And she knows it.

She also knows that the first one doesn't care a damn about her.

But she doesn't care a damn too, about that fact.

She still loves him anyway.

She has a major crush on the second one.

When she sees the second one,

She get all shy and clumsy.

And she has no idea what she does.

So, what exactly do with a heart like that?

My sister gave me two suggestions.

#1 Donate it. There are thousands of people out there dying because they couldn't wait

for a heart transplant.

#2 Leave it the way it is.

Well, I chose #2.

And I'm sticking with my choice.

So, I leave it the way it is.

When everything gets better,

Then the person I chose will clear the mess up for me.

:)

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06.06.2011

I was looking at your profile today.

I saw a recent picture of you.
I couldn't resist.
I clicked on it.
And I saw you.

I looked through your pictures.
And I realized.
I never took pictures with you.
I remember there was once.
You asked:
"Wanna take a picture?"
I said no.

Well, if I said yes now, would it be too late?
If not,
I'll say YES.
I want to have a picture with you.
That stupid, crazy face of yours next to mine.
Why in the world did I say no at that time?

I scanned through the pictures.
There were pictures of your birthday in the app. ' Birthday Calender'
I just realized.
I haven't sent you anything for your birthday this year.

I saw the pictures you had at the new place.
The place far far away from here...
The new people you met.
The new people you're hanging out with.
Well, at least this means you're doing well.

Then, I saw the pictures you took on the last day of school.
And my tears started to flow.
Flow and flow...

I missed you.
I know you don't care a damn about me.
But still, I miss you like crazy.

What happened that made me fall in love with a jerk like you?
Why do I love you so much?
Why do you seem like a jerk and a wonderful person at the same time?
Why...?

03.06.2011

I admit.
YES.
I'm J E A L O U S . . .

I get jealous when I see you being so close to her.
I get jealous when I hear you saying her name like she's your sweetheart.
I get jealous when I see you posting on her wall.
I get jealous when I see the pictures you had with her.
I get jealous when you talk to her and have that twinkle in your eyes.
I get jealous when you give her that lopsided smile of yours.

I'm sure you wouldn't care a damn if I got close with another guy.
You wouldn't care if when I say another guy's name like he's my dear.
You wouldn't notice when I post on another guy's wall.
You wouldn't mind when you see the picture I had with other guys.
You wouldn't be there when I talk to other guys or give them a wink.
You wouldn't feel anything when I give other guys a sweet smile.

You wouldn't feel anything.
But I feel just about
EVERYTHING.

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31.05.2011

You know what?
It hurts most,
When you love somebody so much.
But you know that that somebody doesn't care a damn about you.

Yet, you continue to love.

Cause that's how love works.
In a strange way.

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28.05.2011

I don't know why am I doing this to myself,
I have no idea why am I hurting myself like this.

GOD forgive me for missing youth tonight.
I know I should had said sorry.
But why I didn't?
I have no idea...

Nobody can ever understand the problems I'm facing.
They're treating me like dirt.
I don't even know if they qualify as my friends.
I turn the arrow around and point it to me.
Is it MY fault that made them treat me like that?
I have no idea...

What the heck have I done to deserve this? :(

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26.05.2011

I'm alone in a silent room.
I hear the things I said to you,
The things you said to me.

I've never heard silence this loud...

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25.05.2011

Why are you doing this to me?
You leave me when I needed you most.
You just said:
I don't like you anymore."
I forgave and tried to forget you.
And I finally succeeded after all those tears I dropped.

NOW,
You come back when I have everything I could ever ask for.
When I have thoroughly forgotten about you.
When I just began to settle down with my new life.
And whatdaya expect from me?
Forgiveness?
AGAIN?

Why do boys always mess with my life?
Boys are trouble plus heart breakers.
But you know what?
We all will gradually fall in love with one.
That's the confusing part.

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24.05.2011

I love shadows. ♥

Sista'! :DD

We had joy, we had fun, we were bonding in the sun.
:D

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23.05.2011

Somebody called me a Sejarah freak.
I told that somebody:
"Well, this freak needs to study!" :P

Today's Sejarah was quite easy.
Hope I'll ace it.
Cause I spent my whole weekend on it!

BM was really scary.
But thank God,
I realized that I made a mistake before it was too late. :)

Yupps,
If you're a daily blog-reader,
You'll realise that I'm no longer the EMO person I used to be.
And I'm glad it's that way. :)

We're having Geography and English tomorrow,
So I guess I'll be turning into Geography freak! :P

Can't wait for the test to be over! ;D

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22.05.2011

Tomorrow's the big day.

I've got to ace in my Sejarah,

Cause I spent my whole weekend studying it.

BM, I'm so dead nervous about it.

I never did my BM homework,

So I wouldn't wonder if I failed it. :(

The test is stressing me out.

The sooner it's over,

The better!

God Bless me!

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20.05.2011

Ahhhh!
I'm sooooo dead.

Test is next week.
And I don't even know what are we testing on!
I am soooo dead...

Then there's this problem I'm facing with SOME PARTICULAR boy.
He's turning my life upside-down,
Ruining the quiet peace I used to have...

My mind is gonna explode really soon...
Get ready for the explosion.

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14.05.2011

The weather is FREAKIN' HOT!

And I'm sweating like mad!

My sweat goes:

Drip, drip, drip...

Wonder what's going on with Stella.

Is she sweating like she just had a bath?

Awww...

I miss her...

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11.05.2011

I wanted to call Stella last night,
I already planned how to tell her everything,
And how to cry out my problems to her.
But she just had to interrupt with my life and ruin my plans,
Did she?
ISHH...

I am having a major-heartbreak.
I need to talk to her.
My friends are treating me like dirt,
My church friends treat me like I'm rubbish on the floor and they don't like it so they kick it around,
My exams are coming up and I have no idea what to do,
Some crazy guyy is ruining my peaceful life.
And I missed her...

Owh...
I cried my heart out last night.
And if I don't get to talk to her soon,
The extinct volcano is going to explode.
And I MEAN explode,
KA-BOOOOM!

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10.05.2011

Somebody turned my life upside-down,
And I feel soooo NOT happy.

But, being gloomy wouldn't help in anyway, right?
Either would being happy.

So, i choose to remain feelingless/expressionless...

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07.05.2011

I was thinking about her,
The things she said to me,
The things I said to her,
And I cried...
I couldn't help it.

Then I remembered something,
Whenever she cried,
I would say to her:
'Those worth crying over will NEVER let you cry'
And she would just smile at me,

Cheer up a bit,
And continue to cry.

And that's what I just did.
I smiled at the memories,
Cheered up a bit,
And continued to cry... ;(

Cause I know she's one of those people who's worth crying over...♥

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06.05.2011

I can't believe it,
She turned against me,
They ALL turn against me.
Just because of HER.

How come it seems to me that wherever I go,
People treat me like rubbish.
Somebody just HAS to interfere with my life just as I was settling down...
Ishhh...

Yeah,
So I'm nice to bully,
Huh?
So I've never really scolded you,
Huh?
You need me to really scold you guyss befor you guyss actually respect me?

Ishh!
I don't know what I did to deserve this!
Ishhh!
*angry*

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05.05.2011

Yesterday, I scanned through my entire history on Facebook.

I saw the words:

Sharon joined Facebook.

I saw the stupid things I wrote,

All those stupid comments.

The stupid pics. I liked,

The stupid pics. I commented.

I wanna go back to the time when 'Sharon joined Facebook'.

Owh...

I wanna go back in time...

Where's Harry Potter?

Ishh!

Why the heck am I being so emotional recently?

Stella?

Or what?

Owhh... ;(

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03.05.2011

My life is going down the toilet.

And I feel like screaming all my problems to my pillow and I want a response from it...

A few days ago, my best friend just called me:

Stella : Hi.

Me : Hi.

Stella : So, you're free to chat with me?

Me : I guess so...

Then, it was complete silence...

You know why?

Cause we had nothing to talk about...

What the heck happened to our friendship?

And who the heck is responsible?

Me?

Or her?

I wanna go back to primary 6.

The 'happy-go-lucky' days...

Where did the old us go?

Come back...

I miss the old us...

Sometimes,

Long distance friendship just don't turn out right...

Do they?

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01.05.2011

Just Back from Bintulu.
Here are some sweet memories I had there with CS. ♥

The curtains on the bus - Bintang Jaya Express

Aww...! Ci Min looks so sweet! :)
On the way to BINTULU! :D
Having lunch there.
(From the left: Carolyn, Me and Gloria)
Jacol is sooo cute! After rehearsal.
(From left: Carolyn, Jaco, Natasha, Me and Shi Wen)
Me and my mates taking pictures together before competition.
(From left: Carolyn, Gloria, Caroline and Me)
Aww! I just sooo LOVE Jacol!
He's sooo CUTEE!
The lights on our bus at night.
We're gonna go shopping!
At the shopping centre, drinking pearl milk tea - RM3
(From left: Gloria, Carolyn and Me)
The fountain at the entrance of New World Shopping Mall!
The water splashed onto my camera lens and created a great effect!
Taking pictures with cute Jacol.
(From left: Ting Ching, Wendy, Jacol and Deifilia)
Caroline jumping on the bed while eating her choki-choki while smiling at my camera!
My room mates on the bed!
(From left: Caroline, Carolyn and Ci Hui)

Well, that's all I have.
And as a conclusion,
We all had fun.

No more practices starting now.
Gonna miss CS.
Aww...

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27.04.2011

Packing and getting ready to go. :)

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23.04.2011

You have no idea what the heck you're doing to my life.

Really, you don't know...

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19.04.2011

A lot of things you think are important,

Are just urgent,

But not important.

Focus on what really matters.

A phone call for example is always urgent - it rings only a few times and is gone,

But is often not important.

If you are in the middle of something truly important:

Playing with kids,

Being present with your loved one,

Do not stop just because a silly phone rings.

Stay present with what's important now.

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19.04.2011

I want to care for others like Jesus cares for me.
I want to love others like Jesus loves me.
I want to forgive others like Jesus forgives me.
I want to help others like Jesus helps me.
I want to touch others' hearts like Jesus touched mine.
I want to light up others' lives like Jesus lighted mine.
I want to transform others' life like Jesus transformed mine.

There are so many things I wanna do, like Jesus did for me.
Most important of all, I want you to believe in Jesus Christ.
It can change the world, you know? :)

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16.04.2011

Nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be.
You keep wanting to know how things will play out,
Keep asking to see the future.
God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future,
Because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront.
So, instead of struggling,
Enjoy the uncertainty,
To be alive means to not know.

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15.04.2011

When whispers do not get your attention,
BRICKS will fly your way.
Don't speed through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention.
Slow down and be present.

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09.04.2011

I'm a crazy girl who thinks that the world is sometimes really unfair.
I love my friends, my family and Jesus Christ.
I don't like 'show-off' and 'nosy' people who seek for attention.
I don't do well in my studies and I really suck in my co-curriculum activities.
I have a stupid crush on a crazy boy.
I live as a normal citizen.
I have many friends.
Some hate me like CRAP, and some just love me like crazy.
But I don't hate anybody.
I believe in miracles.
And I believe that dreams do come true.
I have a crave for cheese toast and mint-flavored sweets.
And Toblerone chocolate too! ♥
I'm a christian.
I love God and I know that He loves me too.
I don't like ending my posts with loves, actually. ♥
I like ending them with smiles. :)
I love Taylor Swift's songs,
Cause the lyrics are pretty meaningful.
And I'm hunchbacked,
But I don't care.

What matters most, is that I'm proud and happy with who I am. :)

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25.3.2011

Soooo nervous!
Tomorrow's the big day!
Gotta do well!

Note to self:
Don't forget the actions!
Remember the pauses!
DO YOUR BEST!

Gotta get to state level!
For Jackie!

May God Bless!

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13.3.2011

Let's pray for the Japanese, kays?
They need our prayer.
And at the same time,
Try to avoid visiting Japan websites,
Cause the connection in Japan is disconnected and then connected again unstably,
The people need the internet connection to save lives.
So try not to use their connection.
And spread the word,
For every person you tell,
ONE life will be spared.

God loves and cares for you,
Now it's your turn to love and care for others.

PRAY FOR JAPAN

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12.3.2011

This, was my lunch.

It was soooooo PRETTY!!!

But then, I folded it in half.

And the yolk broke...

In the end, the egg turned out like that.

But still....

IT WAS DELICIOUS!

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11.3.2011

I was bored...

Me specs.

From another angle.

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9.3.2011

I fell in love with photography.

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8.3.2011

This is the flower I got from I-youth's Ladies' Night. :)
I love this picture the most. ♥

Mine and sis'.

Sis' flower.

A closer view of her flower.

Ours together. ♥

My own flower. ♥
Fake dog, not real, kays?
A close up view.

4.3.2011

There is no such thing as conditional love.

Love is either unconditional or it's no love.

You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances.

But love accepts no boundaries.

So never say 'I love you because',

For love has no cause,

Love comes from God.

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2.3.2011

Somebody asked me if I missed you.
I didn't answer,
I just closed my eyes,
And walked away.
Then, I whispered...

S O M U C H . . .

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26.2.2011

Sometimes,

No matter how happy somebody looks on the outside,

There's always a pain she hides inside...

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25.2.2011

Because you saw me when I was invisible...

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23.2.2011

Thislove Islove Thelove Bestlove Waylove Tolove Saylove Thelove Bestlove Oflove Friendslove Musn'tlove Partlove, Promiselove Melove Thatlove, Kayslove?

Now read the whole thing without the word 'love'.
Sweet, right?

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20.2.2011

Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time.

Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew.

There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved.

If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing.

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19.2.2011

When you look, you see reflections of your being.

When you listen, you hear echoes of yourself.

If you don't like something about what you see and hear,

no point in smashing the mirror,

change who you are becoming.

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18.2.2011

If you hoard love, it melts away.

If you lock love, it breaks free.

If you grab on to love, you end up holding an illusion.

When you let love flower in its own way, it stays to support you.

When you pass on love, it multiplies beyond measure.

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